mercredi 31 décembre 2014
Tobacco Relapse!
Posted on 14:28 by Immigration
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I hate to have to admit to being this stupid,.. but after 3 full months without a single cigarette? I started smoking again about a week & a half ago. So, since the New Year is upon us? I figure it's now or never to renew my resolution to quit & get back on the nicotine wagon!
I thought I'd post this up here on the boards so I would have no choice but to face embarrassment as well as any and ALL abuse and humiliation I have coming for screwing up like this! I fully accept and expect folks to let me know just what an idiot and moron I am to have started up smoking again.
Also, if I have any hope of keeping the potential for abuse to a minimum,..? By publicly posting this here, It will force me to stay honest! By doing it this way, anyone who cares to can bump this thread at any time and ask me directly if I'm still smoke free. I promise here and now, I will always answer that question honestly! Regardless of whether the answer is yes or no.
Hopefully, the desire to avoid that potential for personal abuse and embarrassment will help motivate me to remain nicotine free! (…of course, any support or encouragement anyone cares to offer will be much appreciated as well!) :laugh:
Fortunately,.. the one thing I do have going for me right now is that I have not gone back to my full on, pack 'n' a half a day type smoking. I've actually only been taking a few,.. 3, 4, 5, drags per cig and butting them out. So, even tho I have been smoking? At the very least I'm not smoking anywhere near as much as I used to! I figure it's about a third of what I normally smoked before! (…a stupid, lousy rationalization I know, but it's the only one I've got at the moment!) LoL!
I am hopeful this will inspire the motivation and resolve I need to get this done once and for all! I really don't want to let that nicotine addiction drag me back down! Unfortunately, if I've learned anything this last week or so? It's that, for whatever reason, will power alone is proving to be a little weak right now!
So, to that end, I am willing to publicly admit my failure and insure I will have to face the consequences of possible public humiliation, not to mention quietly swallowing a SHITTON of crap from guys who are expert at shoveling it,.. ;) Should my willpower and desire to remain smoke free prove to be insufficient on it's own to get the job done!
So bring it on folks! Here's your chance to let me have it with both barrels if you are so inclined!! And I can't (…and won't) object or complain about any of it! :eyetwitch: :facepalm1: ;) :lol:
I thought I'd post this up here on the boards so I would have no choice but to face embarrassment as well as any and ALL abuse and humiliation I have coming for screwing up like this! I fully accept and expect folks to let me know just what an idiot and moron I am to have started up smoking again.
Also, if I have any hope of keeping the potential for abuse to a minimum,..? By publicly posting this here, It will force me to stay honest! By doing it this way, anyone who cares to can bump this thread at any time and ask me directly if I'm still smoke free. I promise here and now, I will always answer that question honestly! Regardless of whether the answer is yes or no.
Hopefully, the desire to avoid that potential for personal abuse and embarrassment will help motivate me to remain nicotine free! (…of course, any support or encouragement anyone cares to offer will be much appreciated as well!) :laugh:
Fortunately,.. the one thing I do have going for me right now is that I have not gone back to my full on, pack 'n' a half a day type smoking. I've actually only been taking a few,.. 3, 4, 5, drags per cig and butting them out. So, even tho I have been smoking? At the very least I'm not smoking anywhere near as much as I used to! I figure it's about a third of what I normally smoked before! (…a stupid, lousy rationalization I know, but it's the only one I've got at the moment!) LoL!
I am hopeful this will inspire the motivation and resolve I need to get this done once and for all! I really don't want to let that nicotine addiction drag me back down! Unfortunately, if I've learned anything this last week or so? It's that, for whatever reason, will power alone is proving to be a little weak right now!
So, to that end, I am willing to publicly admit my failure and insure I will have to face the consequences of possible public humiliation, not to mention quietly swallowing a SHITTON of crap from guys who are expert at shoveling it,.. ;) Should my willpower and desire to remain smoke free prove to be insufficient on it's own to get the job done!
So bring it on folks! Here's your chance to let me have it with both barrels if you are so inclined!! And I can't (…and won't) object or complain about any of it! :eyetwitch: :facepalm1: ;) :lol:
Tobacco Relapse!
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